Ok, Christmas is over thank God. And anyone who disagrees with me is addled and adored to put up with it. But now it’s time for us to get back to normal so it’s rush, rush, rush. Sell, sell, sell. “Et cetera, et cetera, et cetera.” Thank you, Yul Brynner, for that accentuation to our verbal reality. Indeed, the only true King of Broadway who was able to say it the way “et cetera” is supposed to be said.
So what I decided to do during this “down” time between Christmas and New Year’s Day is gestate. Yes. Gestate, or develop over a period of time. Indeed, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera – or in Latin gestate. Not as brief as a fruit fly, which can be as short as 24-48 hours, and not as extended as an octopus which has been known to brood her eggs for a total of 53 months (aka 4.5 years). I have only a few days and even that is suspect depending on the network that is circulating throughout this industry. Though I have discovered that what I am doing is not all that unusual. The specifics will come out. But I have chosen not to reveal my decisions during this self-imposed period of evolution.
But know that during this time I will continue to write. But not for immediate public consumption. My writing is not limited to blogging or cigars because it is an addiction I openly admit to. It is my crack, my cocaine, my omnipresent sterile needle that I slowly insert into my bulging vein as was done in the memorable slow-mo scene of ichor mixing with the bodily fluids of Vincent Vega of “Pulp Fiction.” It is my high. My creative juice that courses through my veins without a whit of concern of how its infusion affects my body, my brain, my psyche, or my Chicago accent. Only I pray that the words continue to flow through my muscles, tendons and nerves to entertain, to shock, to piss off, and bring attention to whatever I feel need to be said to fulfill my honored mantra and mission statement, “WAKE UP!!!” Daniel Carver-style, though without the ignorance that accompanies his utterances.
So I am an ersatz uterine pretzel curled up in the fetal position of disturbing discovery and fascinating fear. My invisible umbilical cord is my electronic connection to this damn computer, phone and social medium that has gripped me like billions of fish hooks that have no way to be extricated without massive bloodletting to the point that I might feel as a slave must have felt, tied to his “massa,” no disrespect intended for those who are offended so easily. Go ahead, rail now. I suppose. CF.
I just know that for now I may publish songs, poetry readings, plays, snippets of whatever suits my fancy to take the place of the words I love so dearly and that I cherish with my God-given soul. Sounds, tunes, memories, some objectionable, a Burroughs’ mark of approval that I know once loosed will never ever leave my brain but will only expand my cerebral cortex, a file base larger than any computer wizard could ever imagine. Ot nothing. So when I return, I will again begin to elucidate, make attempts at communicating my thoughts of what goes through the mind of this maturing cigar broker’s musings mired in the throes of the tyrannical tentacles of government legislation that is bent on destroying the creativity of all mankind in the name of justice.
Those of you who stick by me so I can simply communicate the views that are processed through my brain with the hopes that what I offer to you will meld into your consciousness resulting in blended ideas that will congeal into solutions, and guide us to our next period of gestation if we all don’t dissolve into conformity by allowing the acidic actions of the spittled sizzle of our freedoms morph into the hell of the Morlocks.
I feel it. The buzz is getting louder. The heavy eyelids of gestation are beginning to pull me in and so I hear the siren and I go . . . go . . . go . . . ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz . . .